How are you so sure of the love he has for you?”The way he looks at me when I’m not looking at him. Every time i catch him staring at me, that’s when I find myself mostly demure. He doesn’t have to say a single word, It’s all in the eyes, his eyes are alluring, they never lie.”
Love is fond in his eyes,
You don’t believe me? Look at him. // K✨
Zeinab Arjah 18/6/16 @za_writings
Would you look at me more than once to check if i was looking back at you?
Will you stop by my heart, or would you choose to see right passed my feelings and proceed to walk by me like the love i have towards you is irrelevant?
I pray you realise that I’m worthy of your heart and that it’s me who is whats best for you.
Whats the point of having a voice if no one is going to hear you out anyway?
No one is willing to help scare away these thoughts that haunt me down every day.
Whats the point of having a perspective in life if you’re going to be judged about seeing something a certain way?
Regardless of how I decided to view life, i was told to sight it differently.
Whats the point of crying if the tears are going to dry up on your face?
My tears built up in my eyes to the point where there was no storage to keep them hidden and no humanity in humans to wipe them off before it stained.
What happens when you’ve concealed your feelings for way too long, there is no place accepting to hide away the pain?
My heart had been neglected by the worlds weight to the point where it doesn’t function the same.
Zeinab Arjah 25/11/15 @za_writings
Writing ‘Artificial life’ has definitely been one of the greatest things I’ve done over the past few years and it’s such a great pleasure to share it with you all. I have chosen to write something explicit in hopes you have more of an understanding about me. If you haven’t yet checked out my previous posts on this website then feel free to at any time!
I will start uploading videos in the middle of next year but just before i do so, i want you all to ask me questions on this website rather than my Instagram or snapchat because it’s much easier to respond here, I’ve chosen this platform to connect with my supporters and also it’ll leave me with something to talk/record about! So please don’t hesitate typing out your questions down in the comments section below.
Thank you all once again for the continuous support please note that i am so grateful and appreciative of it. Enjoy!
Yes, It was very uncomfortable growing up with pain in my eyes and sorrow in my heart however, it only made me even more humble. I always understood that others had it worse but nothing could sugar coat the way i felt. I was young but the cruelty of society taught me a big lesson and I thank God for it.
As a young teenage girl who has not only been bullied into silence but also watched both parents part away from love, i was constantly fighting a battle between myself and I. Regardless of how inhumanity shred it’s way skin deep while i was trying to win myself back, I definitely don’t regret putting up a fight because all that I’ve endured has allowed me to develop into a wise enough young lady that is so understanding of others emotions and I couldn’t have wanted it any other way.
After watching a series of contradicting years, the younger me only ever wished that someday i own a bigger mirror in order to see more of me rather than already having owned such a small mirror that only reflected the pain of my gloomy eyes. I always cared way too much about others who didn’t about me to the point achieving goals was the most i craved. It is when I mended fences, became friends with myself again and turned selfish for my own sanity others didn’t like it.
When i came to an agreement with pen and paper, they let me depend on them to express my feelings rather than letting my vocabulary eat me up. So i could say that writing has been one of the finest way to express my emotions and publishing a book is the cherry on top.
I taught myself how to see more of life using the same small mirror i had and now i sleep comfortably knowing I achieved the goals I’ve set, prospered by my positive vibe and affirm mindset.
– Zeinab Arjah